♥Living life!♥

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Hello again! Today has been a good day.  I was able to sleep last night witch was great because I have been kept up every night for the last week with ranting and raving :(.. I have felt like a big weight has been lifted off of my shoulders by just changing one little thing about my life, being honest with my Mom about everything that I have been going thru.♥  It's an amazing feeling to be able to get it off my chest as when before I was keeping it all in and only talking to one person about everything and that was just two times a month.  And she is being paid to listen so it was hard  to relate to her.  I have got a  plan now and just need to follow through with it.  I cant be abused any more and I don't deserve it. I deserve the best that life has to offer and I'm not going to settle for less!♥  My abuser is aware that I am saving up some money to leave him and he is going to do everything in his power to get me to stay.  I have explained to him that I'm not going to wait for him to change. He is starting anger management classes "supposedly".  I have herd that before and I will believe it when I see it.  But if it doesn't happen before I have enough money to get my son and myself back to Colorado with our things I'm not going to postpone my plans to wait and see.  My son has a dirt bike and we have our bikes and all of his toys and both of our clothes.  Or plan B would be to find somewhere cheap to live here and stay.  But I don't have anyone here.  And I'm not joking. I have been here sense February and don't know a single person.  So going back home looks more realistic.  The only thing that is making me sad is that I don't want to leave school.  I want more then ever to get an education and do well to show my kids that you can have anything in life that you want you just have to work hard and things will be possible.  So last day off before going back to school tomorrow.  Hope to see all my fellow students smiling faces tomorrow and have a great day! ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥ 
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