Well hello there! It's been a while.  So much has happened since.  My best friend my lover Todd was killed in a traffic car crash. My life hasn't been the same since! I havePTSD. Nightmares, flash backs you name it and I'm torturing myself daily.  I feel the most heart ache for my son.  My heart aches in the simple fact that his Stepdad there only really father figure my son had had his whole life is gone.  We will never again hear his voice on the other end of the line.  But all is not lost.  I've gotten so much growth in the area of communicating with those passed over.  Todd  had crazy high energy and he came through right away.  Like within five minutes of passing.  I was the one who went out looking for him.  After being together for close to a decade our energy was And still is intertwined.  So breaking that bond isn't likely.  But yeah i went out looking and i found him....... more to come. X♡X♡

What a crazy day this has been!   had totally forgotten about this class .  I have almost forgotten all about Michigan!  I am proud as can be to say that I am back in COLORADO!!!  My son and myself did it!  ;)

☆★☆★CT Scan!☆★☆★

☆★☆★I have been waking up every day with the worst head aches you have ever had.  So I asked my Dr. what he thought was going on and he sent me in for a CT on Wednesday and when I finished with the CT the lady said that the Dr's would review my chart and talk with my primary MD and I would know something within a couple hours and that was more then 24 hours ago?  I am starting to get worried. I think if they had nothing to show then he would have called me before now and said not to worry.  So as you can imagine I am freaking out!  I have had a couple days of complete misery between the headaches and the other stresses that I am faced with on a regular basis.  I am in dire need of a vacation!  I cant wait for Thanksgiving because my parents are coming from Colorado and I am seriously considering of going back home at that time.  I am trying to win the lottery meantime!☆★☆★

♥ School is a Bummer ♥

Hello my wonderful people! This is my little racer! So I am rocking my way through the first semester.  I have kept myself going at a steady pace and been constant in my anatomy class.  I have improved with the homework aspect and started getting a 100% on them as when before I was always missing 2.  And I totally bombed my last test and that was no surprise to me.  I have a great opportunity next week and that is that our teacher said we can use one 3X5 note card with as much information as we can fit on it and I think I can fit all the answers on it! I will just have to bring my magnifying glass with so I can see what I wrote.  But it is a good thing for me!  So other then that I am doing ok.  I have had a bit of a scare at the doctors lately.  A couple years ago I had cancer, I have been in remission for the past 6 years and I just routinely go in and have blood work done. Well last week I went in to get my blood draw and the doc called me later on in the week and said he needed to see me right away something was not right with the blood work.  So as you can imagine I was freaking out just a bit.  But everything was fine I just hold my breath when I get my blood drawn because needles freak me out.  So I had to go back in for a second blood draw and breathe through it lol... So after all everything is fine but I have to double up on my Thyroid medication cuz it's way off.  I learned today that stress makes my thyroid go outta whack.  So that makes sense because I have been super stressed lately.  Halloween went awesome and I got to take my son out Trick-O-treating on Halloween night witch was so much fun.  Last year I lived in New Orleans and they had a huge concert venue called Voodoo so I had one of his friends from school take him and I went to the party so I missed out last year on the whole door to door thing.  But I sure made up for it this year!

Bummer Test!

Well all the studying I did for my anatomy test did not pay off!  I did worse on this test than the one I didn't study for!  I went and met with the teacher and she said that I just need to calm down and breathe and try my hardest and things will be ok.  Everything is going to turn out in the end!  Oh and I said that I got the dream job that I had interviewed for twice well the school doesn't allow Felons to participate in the work study program.  So I cant have a job through the school witch sucks because I had put so much energy into getting that job and everyone at the place where I was going to work loved me!  So yesterday I was in the Comcast office and the guy said that they were hiring so I went home and put in my application on-line and sent my Resume along with it!  I hope and prey that I get that job!  If I do I may just go to school [part time and work full time because they have good benefits and free cable and everything and everyone there seemed nice and it seemed like a chill place to work.  So people pray for me!  And if anyone can give me some tips on studying then let me know!

♥ My little Tooth Fairy Moments!♥

♥ Sorry I couldn't flip it! But it was the biggest thing that has happened to my son in a while!  He was so excited that he could hardly stand himself.  And I wanted to share it! He has had this loose tooth for weeks and to him at six years old it seems like it's been loose for ever! lol  So you can imagine his excitement that it's finally fell out.  He is such a good boy that when I put him to bed at night he doesn't get up and I put him to bed Saturday night and he apparently wiggled the tooth out and held it in his hand all night long.  And first thing Sunday morning he woke me up at 8am and wanted some cereal so I sleepily got up and started fixing him a bowl of Lucky Charms and it didn't take me but a second to notice that something was off.  I said Gabriel where is your tooth?  He said "OH NO"!  And split off back to his room to find the tooth!  Well about a half a minute later he came back proud as could be and showed me his first lost tooth! It may not seem like much to some people but you have to remember the first tooth that you lost was such a big occasion!  I cried and said I guess your not my baby anymore and he gave me a hug and said yes sir mommy I still am your baby! God is great!  It's the little things in life that make it worth while!♥♥♥

School Blues!

         I was thinking I am doing great at this school thing! And well I am not doing as great as I once had thought.  My Human Structure and Function class is turning out to be more then I can handle.  I was thinking that I did well on my test and I only got 32 out of 50.  Ya you do the math that's a 64% Not good!  The one good thing is that she throws out the lowest test score at the end of the semester.  So I need to hit the books and try and retain the information and not let the whole "test" word freak me out and ruin my score.  For some reason the whole Test word has done terrible things to me.  I cant ever remember a time when I have done well taking tests.  So I am going to pretend that it's just another assignment.  We will have to see.  Other then that I haven't seen any change on the home front.  Same old crap just a different week!  But I'm not going to waste any of my energy on thinking or worrying about that any more!  My son has been doing well in school and I think it's because at night we have been studying the bible together and he really enjoys it.  And I enjoy the learning time we share also.  I am loving my Math class and I am loving my English class also because I feel like I am getting the most out of them.  So I hope everyone is doing well and having a successful time in College.  Ta Ta for now!